wow.

Today I had another appt with Dr. M. Sort of a random one.

I called because I was concerned about being on Cycle Day 48. He also found this to be unacceptable & wanted to "check things out". So I headed in for an ultrasound.

I was secretly staring at the screen as hard as I could hoping to see a little baby hiding in there but no luck.

What we did see was the remnants of a very large cyst that had ruptured. How.did.I.miss.that?!?!?! I mean really.

Turns out last week when I had the "flu" what I actually had was intense pain from the cyst rupturing that caused me to throw up and blame it on the flu. Idiot.

So while I'm currently shocked that I didn't realize earlier what was happening, I think i'm more annoyed at the fact that it happened AGAIN. Stupid PCOS, stupid ovaries that don't work, stupid female parts that make me angry. It's a never ending battle over here. If I go off birth control to try and get pregnant then I get even more cysts. Which in turn throw my cycle off and prevent me from getting pregnant anyway. Stupid vicious cycle.

So today I'm praying for ovaries that will work correctly, cysts that will not form, and healing on my lady parts.