$10,000!?!?!?

Anyone have a spare $10,000 laying around they would like to give me?!?! Nobody huh... shucks!!

I guess 11/11/11 wasn't really as lucky as I had hoped it would be. Dr. M said that we CAN go ahead with IUI however he feels the chances of it working are pretty much nil. He said normally a woman doing IUI has approximately a 20% chance of becoming pregnant each month she does IUI. MY chances are only 10% max if I do the IUI every. single. month. for the next year. That averages out to less than 1% chance each month. He said while it IS possible, it's just not likely given the fact that my ovaries are stubborn and selfish and make tons of eggs but refuse to actually release any!

So he said he still is thinking that IVF is going to be by far our best option but there is just one problem standing in our way... it comes in the form of $10,000! IVF is just SO EXPENSIVE and has to be paid upfront. I know that there are financing options and grants and loans and such things but since we are currently $30,000 in debt with medical bills mostly from failed fertility treatments we aren't really in a position to get a loan at this present time.

So I guess we wait. Wait until we can either save up enough money, get different insurance, or win the lottery. Waiting sucks!! I've always been terrible at it. The two week wait period normally has me a complete wreck because I am impatient and anxious and make up symptoms in my head because I want to badly to feel them that I end up making myself crazy. So stay tuned to find out how well I handle the wait, because I am guessing it'll be a long one!