So after the IUI was a fail and adopting through an agency is WAY out of our price range we took a hard look at where we wanted to be and how we wanted to proceed. Did we want to stay and try Foster Care, or switch jobs to getting better insurance to move on to IVF or move all together and get a fresh start somewhere else.
Well we've decided that we are moving to Colorado!! I am BEYOND excited for this and wish that January would get here sooner. Why January you ask??? Well we are waiting until January to get things taken care of here and there, saving money and waiting for our lease to run out. We've already started going through the house and taking inventory of things we will/will not be taking with us. I've also started looking online for apartments/houses and jobs. It helps that my BFF lives there and so I've asked her to keep a lookout and if I find a place online I can send her to look at it without me having to actually be there. So that's very helpful. Job hunting is going to be a little trickier. I'm not really sure how that will work from across the country but people do it all the time, right? So far I've posted my resume on Monster.com and I'm checking with the local newspapers online there.
I'm not going to lie taking a 6 month break in the TTC dept sucks because I know I'm just going to keep getting older as time progresses but I know that I'll be happier once we get moved and settled and therefore less stressed and we will re-evaluate at that time if we are going to go forward with IVF at the Colorado Center for Reproductive Medicine in Denver or if we'll move forward with trying to adopt.
Right now I just know that I'm excited! Scared but very excited and completely thrilled to have something to focus my energy on besides TTC and shots and doctor appointments and temperatures and periods and OPK's and BFN's and adoption paperwork and legal fees. Completely thrilled. :)
Showing posts with label IUI. Show all posts
Showing posts with label IUI. Show all posts
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Monday, July 16, 2012
IUI Bust
So our IUI with Injectible cycle is over and done. Due to my having PCOS there was just no good way to make 1 or 2 follicles grow and not them all. I ended up with 12 mature follicles and about another 10 not far behind. So needless to say Dr. J (and us) didn't feel comfortable proceeding with the insemination. So we had to cancel. We were extremely disappointed. We knew this was a possible outcome from the beginning but we were really really hoping that by some miracle things would work out.
We've decided not to try again with IUI because odds are pretty high that will just happen again. So we are taking yet another break while we save for IVF or adoption. The breaks suck!!! I'm doing my best tyring to let things be up to God but I hate just sitting idly by and waiting feeling like I'm doing nothing to get us closer to our goal of becoming parents. It's a tough road to walk and hard to figure out which way to go.
We've decided not to try again with IUI because odds are pretty high that will just happen again. So we are taking yet another break while we save for IVF or adoption. The breaks suck!!! I'm doing my best tyring to let things be up to God but I hate just sitting idly by and waiting feeling like I'm doing nothing to get us closer to our goal of becoming parents. It's a tough road to walk and hard to figure out which way to go.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Hello in there....
Hello, is anyone in there.... *crickets* This is pretty much how my appt went this morning. I'm on CD10 of our first IUI w/injectables and was informed this morning that the dosage of meds they have me on is doing NOTHING! My largest follicle is at 7mm, it was 6mm on Friday. I'm not impressed.
So they were planning on inseminating this Friday but that has since changed since you know nothing is in there. So the date is getting pushed out which simply isn't good for me. We are going to Nebraska for a family reunion from 7/5 - 7/8.... which if you guessed is right around the time frame that they are now wanting to inseminate you would win the grand prize! - Not sure what I'm going to do about this situation.
Don't get me wrong, I would go to the ends of the earth to have a child(ren) but I'm just a little frustrated with getting up at 4:00 a.m. to drive 1.5 hours there and then back to work 3 times a week and it's been pretty much for nothing.
PS. Don't even get me started on the giant pain-in-the-ass it was to get the freaking meds here the first time and now I have to order MORE. plus the band-aid from the blood draw this morning gave me a rash. :(
Is anything in my life ever going to be easy.
So they were planning on inseminating this Friday but that has since changed since you know nothing is in there. So the date is getting pushed out which simply isn't good for me. We are going to Nebraska for a family reunion from 7/5 - 7/8.... which if you guessed is right around the time frame that they are now wanting to inseminate you would win the grand prize! - Not sure what I'm going to do about this situation.
Don't get me wrong, I would go to the ends of the earth to have a child(ren) but I'm just a little frustrated with getting up at 4:00 a.m. to drive 1.5 hours there and then back to work 3 times a week and it's been pretty much for nothing.
PS. Don't even get me started on the giant pain-in-the-ass it was to get the freaking meds here the first time and now I have to order MORE. plus the band-aid from the blood draw this morning gave me a rash. :(
Is anything in my life ever going to be easy.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
It's go time!!!
Ladies and gentleman we are on the starting blocks and diving head first into the magical world of IUI with Injectibles!!!!!
This morning was my baseline bloodwork & ultrasound and the meds will be arriving by FedEx tomorrow morning to be started immediately.
To say I'm nervous is the understatement of the year. My family and doctor are all really paranoid about multiples and my.oh.my the consent forms I've had to fill out! but honestly I'm terrified it won't work at all.
We are praying like crazy that this will be the answer to our prayers! Please pray for us!
This morning was my baseline bloodwork & ultrasound and the meds will be arriving by FedEx tomorrow morning to be started immediately.
To say I'm nervous is the understatement of the year. My family and doctor are all really paranoid about multiples and my.oh.my the consent forms I've had to fill out! but honestly I'm terrified it won't work at all.
We are praying like crazy that this will be the answer to our prayers! Please pray for us!
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Random Ramblings
So this post is going to be sort of all over the place, but my brain is currently living in CrazyTown right now so what can ya expect!
* IVF has been postponed until we miraculously win the lottery, become rich or change jobs and get better insurance coverage. Everything went perfectly with the testing and Dr. J was ready to get started but we cannot get the financing. FML.
* We talked Dr. J into letting us do IUI with stims. It's a long shot since I have PCOS plus we're dealing with male factor stuff as well BUT our insurance covers it. So we're willing to try.Also, it's super risky as far as getting a multiple pregnancy. Dr. J kept mentioning the word litter. :-o)
* I'm a little terrified of the IUI. We've already done IUI with Clomid twice with no luck so I'm currently living in between being completely terrified it won't work at all and being completely terrified that we'll end up with 8 babies. Either way... I'm terrified.
* I've talked to Dr. J and let him know that I'm in NO WAY comfortable with selective reduction. I sort of feel like I've been praying/begging for a baby for so long that it would sort of be like punching God in the face and saying no thanks, changed my mind. Plus the procedure that would be done... I could NOT do to a baby. So unless there is like 10 or 12 in there and I will absolutely die or they will all die if I do not do it then it's just simply not an option.
* This whole process is moving a lot slower than I thought. I have to be approved by a Maternal Fetal Specialist before I can proceed (because of that whole risk of multiples thing) and they can't get me in until June 15th. Rational me knows that's less than a month away so big deal right... emotional me knows that because of where I am in my cycle I'm going to have to miss 2 MORE CYCLES before we can even THINK about getting started. Not impressed.
* Relationship is still a work in progress. I think the IF stuff is just wearing on us so much and I never feel like he cares enough and he thinks I care enough for about 30 people. So we're working on it.
* Work is stressing me the F out. I feel like my pile of things to do just keeps growing and growing, no matter how much I do to work on the pile it's not shrinking.
Other than all that, no too much going on in these parts. Just hurry up and wait, hurry up and wait. Story of my life!
* IVF has been postponed until we miraculously win the lottery, become rich or change jobs and get better insurance coverage. Everything went perfectly with the testing and Dr. J was ready to get started but we cannot get the financing. FML.
* We talked Dr. J into letting us do IUI with stims. It's a long shot since I have PCOS plus we're dealing with male factor stuff as well BUT our insurance covers it. So we're willing to try.Also, it's super risky as far as getting a multiple pregnancy. Dr. J kept mentioning the word litter. :-o)
* I'm a little terrified of the IUI. We've already done IUI with Clomid twice with no luck so I'm currently living in between being completely terrified it won't work at all and being completely terrified that we'll end up with 8 babies. Either way... I'm terrified.
* I've talked to Dr. J and let him know that I'm in NO WAY comfortable with selective reduction. I sort of feel like I've been praying/begging for a baby for so long that it would sort of be like punching God in the face and saying no thanks, changed my mind. Plus the procedure that would be done... I could NOT do to a baby. So unless there is like 10 or 12 in there and I will absolutely die or they will all die if I do not do it then it's just simply not an option.
* This whole process is moving a lot slower than I thought. I have to be approved by a Maternal Fetal Specialist before I can proceed (because of that whole risk of multiples thing) and they can't get me in until June 15th. Rational me knows that's less than a month away so big deal right... emotional me knows that because of where I am in my cycle I'm going to have to miss 2 MORE CYCLES before we can even THINK about getting started. Not impressed.
* Relationship is still a work in progress. I think the IF stuff is just wearing on us so much and I never feel like he cares enough and he thinks I care enough for about 30 people. So we're working on it.
* Work is stressing me the F out. I feel like my pile of things to do just keeps growing and growing, no matter how much I do to work on the pile it's not shrinking.
Other than all that, no too much going on in these parts. Just hurry up and wait, hurry up and wait. Story of my life!
Friday, November 11, 2011
$10,000!?!?!?
Anyone have a spare $10,000 laying around they would like to give me?!?! Nobody huh... shucks!!
I guess 11/11/11 wasn't really as lucky as I had hoped it would be. Dr. M said that we CAN go ahead with IUI however he feels the chances of it working are pretty much nil. He said normally a woman doing IUI has approximately a 20% chance of becoming pregnant each month she does IUI. MY chances are only 10% max if I do the IUI every. single. month. for the next year. That averages out to less than 1% chance each month. He said while it IS possible, it's just not likely given the fact that my ovaries are stubborn and selfish and make tons of eggs but refuse to actually release any!
So he said he still is thinking that IVF is going to be by far our best option but there is just one problem standing in our way... it comes in the form of $10,000! IVF is just SO EXPENSIVE and has to be paid upfront. I know that there are financing options and grants and loans and such things but since we are currently $30,000 in debt with medical bills mostly from failed fertility treatments we aren't really in a position to get a loan at this present time.
So I guess we wait. Wait until we can either save up enough money, get different insurance, or win the lottery. Waiting sucks!! I've always been terrible at it. The two week wait period normally has me a complete wreck because I am impatient and anxious and make up symptoms in my head because I want to badly to feel them that I end up making myself crazy. So stay tuned to find out how well I handle the wait, because I am guessing it'll be a long one!
I guess 11/11/11 wasn't really as lucky as I had hoped it would be. Dr. M said that we CAN go ahead with IUI however he feels the chances of it working are pretty much nil. He said normally a woman doing IUI has approximately a 20% chance of becoming pregnant each month she does IUI. MY chances are only 10% max if I do the IUI every. single. month. for the next year. That averages out to less than 1% chance each month. He said while it IS possible, it's just not likely given the fact that my ovaries are stubborn and selfish and make tons of eggs but refuse to actually release any!
So he said he still is thinking that IVF is going to be by far our best option but there is just one problem standing in our way... it comes in the form of $10,000! IVF is just SO EXPENSIVE and has to be paid upfront. I know that there are financing options and grants and loans and such things but since we are currently $30,000 in debt with medical bills mostly from failed fertility treatments we aren't really in a position to get a loan at this present time.
So I guess we wait. Wait until we can either save up enough money, get different insurance, or win the lottery. Waiting sucks!! I've always been terrible at it. The two week wait period normally has me a complete wreck because I am impatient and anxious and make up symptoms in my head because I want to badly to feel them that I end up making myself crazy. So stay tuned to find out how well I handle the wait, because I am guessing it'll be a long one!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
One of those days...
Today is just one of those days. A day where I am irritated by EVERYTHING!!
Truth is - I have about a million & one things going on in my head right now so I'm sure that's why I am so on edge but who knows. All I do know is that the next person to pull out in front of me and then stop or slow down or just in general be in the way very well might find themselves rear-ended!!
In other news... We have finally found a house!! We can move in anytime after the 15th & we are SO EXCITED! It is going to be so great to have our own space again. I am a little nervous about all the work that will be going on with moving, unpacking, organizing, and getting everything switched all over which is going toconveniently obviously fall smack dab in the middle of my cycle in which we are going to be doing IUI. That's just the sort of luck we have. So I'll be doing my best to stay calm, relaxed, and rested as much as possible.
In other, other news... 2 of my Grandparents are not doing well. Last week Grandma B was sent home from the hospital with Hospice Care due to Congestive Heart Failure. She is 94 & from the sounds of it won't be around too much longer. It's pretty much day to day at this point. She has good days and bad. Also, Sunday night my Grandpa D was taken to the hospital with a high fever after being on 2 different antibiotics and sick for a week. After several tests it turns out he has Leukemia. Doctors were optimistic at first saying depending on the type and stage he might have a chance to fight it, IF they could get him stronger. Well since then he's taken a turn for the worse and doctors (while still waiting for official test results) are now saying they think the cancer has already spread pretty far & he may be in the final stages. I am not ready to lose even one grandparent, let alone two possibly at the same time. It's been a rough week to say the least, combined with the fact that I'm currently in week 3 of my cycle and that's always when I feel the worst.
Please pray for both of my Grandparents & also that Jerry & I have a smooth transition into our new home where we will hopefully being hearing the pitter patter of little feet very soon.
Truth is - I have about a million & one things going on in my head right now so I'm sure that's why I am so on edge but who knows. All I do know is that the next person to pull out in front of me and then stop or slow down or just in general be in the way very well might find themselves rear-ended!!
In other news... We have finally found a house!! We can move in anytime after the 15th & we are SO EXCITED! It is going to be so great to have our own space again. I am a little nervous about all the work that will be going on with moving, unpacking, organizing, and getting everything switched all over which is going to
In other, other news... 2 of my Grandparents are not doing well. Last week Grandma B was sent home from the hospital with Hospice Care due to Congestive Heart Failure. She is 94 & from the sounds of it won't be around too much longer. It's pretty much day to day at this point. She has good days and bad. Also, Sunday night my Grandpa D was taken to the hospital with a high fever after being on 2 different antibiotics and sick for a week. After several tests it turns out he has Leukemia. Doctors were optimistic at first saying depending on the type and stage he might have a chance to fight it, IF they could get him stronger. Well since then he's taken a turn for the worse and doctors (while still waiting for official test results) are now saying they think the cancer has already spread pretty far & he may be in the final stages. I am not ready to lose even one grandparent, let alone two possibly at the same time. It's been a rough week to say the least, combined with the fact that I'm currently in week 3 of my cycle and that's always when I feel the worst.
Please pray for both of my Grandparents & also that Jerry & I have a smooth transition into our new home where we will hopefully being hearing the pitter patter of little feet very soon.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Lucky # 11
I meet with the baby doctor on 11/11/11 @ 11 a.m. This appointment is to get all the dates, medications in order as we pursue another round of IUI. I'm beyond excited to say the least! I am truly hoping that the Lucky #11 will certainly be lucky for us & we will finally see our dreams come true!
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