We are two weeks away from Baby Girl's due date. TWO WEEKS!!! The anticipation is completely killing me at this point. I'm not sleeping well, I'm crabby and snapping at everyone and cry all the time. I mean don't get me wrong I'm so so so so excited to finally have a baby and to be there for her birth but at the same time all the wondering/waiting is driving me nuts. When will she call, will she call, where will I be, what day will it be, will I miss the call, will we make it there on time, will our parents get ready to go fast enough, do I have everything we need packed?!? These questions are weighing on my mind all day and all night long. Hence the no sleep, which is making me crabby.
And if one more person tells me to "Just Relax, Be patient, or It'll all work out" I'm going to straight throat punch them. I HATED that expression when we were trying to conceive for 7+ years and I think I might actually hate it even more now. Relaxing doesn't help you get pregnant when your lady parts aren't working at all and it's certainly not going to throw L into labor any damn faster. It also doesn't help that I have friends, family, co-workers, acquaintances calling and texting me about every 15 minutes asking if I've heard anything yet. NO, if I did I would call you. LEAVE ME ALONE! All that does is stress me out even more for not having the answers and then they tell me to relax and be patient. It's a never ending cycle.
I don't mean for this post to sound so Debbie Downer but it's hard to wait for the biggest thing to ever happen in your life when you have NO CLUE what's happening at any given moment or dr appt or anything like that. It's tough. Please pray that I'll find some patience and finally be able to get some rest before I go totally insane. :)
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