Tough

Today was Grandma B's funeral. It was tough to say goodbye to another Grandparent so soon. It's been quite the roller coaster of emotions the last couple weeks. We've lost so many Grandparents, friends, relatives that it's hard to believe anymore. We also found out today that my bro-in-law's aunt died around 1:30. They had known it was coming, but certainly doesn't make it any easier.

Thanksgiving is in a couple days. I am so excited! I love getting together with the family and eating and playing cards and just being together... and then on to the Christmas Decorations! :) This year will not be quite as joyful though as it will be our first holiday after the loss of our Grandparents. I'm sure we'll make it through, we will just be extra thankful for the family members that are still with us.

The last couple months have been so busy and so up and down that it doesn't seem like it's even time for the holidays yet. I am in shock that Christmas is in 34 days. Thirty.four.days.?!? How the heck did that happen?

I am thankful that this year is almost over, I look forward to 2012 and hope that we will have joyous occasions to celebrate instead of so many heartbreaks. I for sure hope that 2012 will be the year our first child is born. I've been hoping that for several years but I think I am more determined than ever to make it happen. (I know it's not in my control, but I'd like to think if I work/try harder, I can help things along.)

Right now I think our definite plan is to lose weight/save money for IVF. We are still very open to adoption and would LOVE to grow our family in that direction but right now we just don't have the resources or funds to go through an agency. We are going to keep searching on our own and tell as many people as possible about our plans so they can help us look and hopefully if God decides that is how we will grow our family he will make it happen.

So here is hoping that 2012 will bring us better luck, happiness, and not so much heartbreak. Don't get me wrong we did have a lot of happy reasons to celebrate in 2011 but I think we've had more heartbreak than happiness.