Overwhelmed

I had a phone consultation with an adoption agency this morning. WHEW! Talk about overwhelming. There is SO MUCH STUFF that goes along with adoption... we had no idea. All of this is leaving me feeling very overwhelmed, which is bringing me down in the dumps with the "Why me's?". It's just so hard for me to understand WHY we are having such a rough road to parenthood. Everyone makes it look so easy, classes is school tell you it happens if you don't use protection even one time so why are we sitting here 6 & 1/2 years later with not using protection and nothing. Infertility really should have been included in the sex education class. I think it also makes it harder that no one else in my family has to deal with any of this so I feel like I'm on an island all alone while everyone else around me keeps having babies. It's a terrible feeling and just when I thought we had come to terms with the Infertility Stuff and were done with that road and going to pursue adoption now I'm not so sure. It's strange just 2 days ago adoption seemed like the answer to our prayers, the light at the end of the tunnel and now it seems like the tunnel is growing by the second and has more twists & turns that we are ready for. Right now I guess we are still stuck at the fork in the road unsure which way to turn.