Bummed

Today was the day that the finalists were announced for the FREE IVF giveaway through Sher Fertility Institutes. Sadly we were not a finalist. I wish all the finalists the best of luck but I can't help but be jealous.

Jealous is something that I've become all to familiar with here lately. I have now started getting jealous of other infertile couples who I've felt their journey was "easier" than mine. That's pretty bad. I know how terrible Infertility is and yet here I am being mad at other couples going through it because they have IVF insurance coverage, or the money to try IVF and have done it 6 times. Am I really jealous of someone who has done IVF 6 times and doesn't have a baby? Why yes, yes I am. I.am.a.terrible.person.

It just sucks. We know what we WANT to do but we just don't have the insurance coverage/money to DO any of it.

I really need to win the lottery. I know they say money doesn't buy happiness but I'm here to tell you, it does. It buys IVF medications, IVF treatments, dr appts, time off work, and everything else we need to make a family. It would also cover home studies, agency fees & placement fees. That's the sucky thing about infertility... not only does it take everything you have mentally, physically & emotionally, it also takes ALL OF YOUR MONEY. Everything about it is sooo expensive.

So it might not buy everyone's happiness but it sure would buy mine.