So while we are still reeling from the shock of A & J's adopting we got another surprise Friday night.
Little Sister (that's moved in with us while her hubby's at Boot Camp) found out she is pregnant.
WOW. I am happy for them, all of them, I really am. It's just hard to keep being excited for everyone when every time I hear a pregnancy/adoption announcement I feel like God just slapped us in the face. I know that's a terrible thing to think but it's how I feel.
Then of course the crazy in my brain lets loose with the "Why Me's??" It's not a good time.
It's just so hard to understand why in the world God would want us to suffer this much and keep having everyone around us be so blessed and we are still just waiting with no end in sight.
Plain and simple. We can't afford IVF, we can't afford an adoption agency and we can't get a loan for either one. So we are stuck. Stuck trying on our own (knowing full well it's not going to happen). Stuck getting older by the minute and know that's only going to make matters worse. Stuck hoping/wishing/praying that someone anywhere will help us by finding our blog, email or just know us in general and have a baby for us. We are just stuck and it's not a good place to be.
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