I wish that I could see into the future for just a little while to see where I'm supposed to end up. I know that life would be no fun if everyone got everything they wanted and knew exactly how things would play out but just a glimpse would be nice.
I want to ask where I should be looking to find the children that God wants in my family. I wish I knew how to get ourselves out of our money situations. I wish I knew a lot of things really.
I'm just stressed and confused I guess. I want nothing more than to be a mother but I just don't know how to make that happen. It doesn't help that I've been helping my little sister get things set up and ready for her 2nd baby to be born in a couple months. It's just hard, I'm 5 years older than her and she's having her 2nd baby and I still have none. It's incredibly difficult not to be jealous.
Hopefully soon I'll be able to find my way on the right path. Right now I guess I'm stuck wishing for a Crystal Ball to show me the way.
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