I am terrible at making decisions. Mostly because I can't just make a decision for myself and stick with it but rather think I need to make a decision that will keep everyone around me happy regardless of what I really want. I've always been that way. Wanting to please everyone and keep people from arguing or being mad at me.
The decision on the table is about moving to Colorado. My best friend lives there and we've been out to visit several times. WE LOVE IT THERE!! It's absolutely breath-taking beautiful there. Not to mention the fact that my best friend and her husband are there. :) Seems like a no-brainer right. EXCEPT....
The problem that's keeping us from moving is our nephews. We don't have any children and most likely will not have any children. Not unless a miracle finds it's way to us. So our nephews have become like our children. We currently see them nearly everyday, we've been to every birthday party, sporting event, practice event and have been in attendance for all of their births. I don't want to miss out on their great hugs and excited eyes when they tell me stories or see me walk in the door. My sisters keep telling me that us moving doesn't mean that we are out of the family or will never see them again and I know that but it's going to be different and I'm not sure I'm ready to adjust. Plus my sisters and my mom are my best friends. We talk every single day and tell each other everything. So I don't want to feel left out of the loop because it's different telling someone in the same town everything and telling someone across country everything.
The pros for us are great. We love it there, we don't own a home or have fantastic jobs that are holding us here, we are ready for a new start. Every time we consider moving the only thing that comes up that we can't move past is leaving the boys behind.
Decisions, Decisions... not sure what to do.
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